it's "just" a matter of feelings

Here I am, with all these feelings that belong to me (but I wish they didn't). Since yesterday. So I could say it's been almost one day, and I will have to see how long they last to see if I can trust them or not.

And, at this time, I won't say anything. Which doesn't mean I don't see, feel, think or know. I will just keep them for myself. I don't want to give explanations for something I don't understand.

I also don't want to talk. Because, if I talk, I say. I can't stay quiet about what I think I should talk about. I'm like this. It's God's fault, if you wanna an explanation.